Night Whispers

She pulls the blankets around her, closes her eyes to get lost in the warmth. Whispers from the winter night easing inside her room. She reaches out for sleep to come, an elusive dance begins. Exhaustion sits on her eye lids but her mind wakes up in the silence of the moment. Her heart drops all walls as the moon climbs into the sky. The familiar cadency begins, pulsing out the words she keeps within. missing you residing void in my heart your missing laugh use to live there She swallows hard to suppress the feelings trying to crawl their way … Continue reading Night Whispers

Nightly Confessions

  It is only at night I can wrap myself up and hold my secrets between my ribcage-embrace and just breathe. I run my trembling fingers down my stomach searching for a sign and to feel the darkness that has taken my body hostage. Closing my eyes I inhale the stars to illuminate me from within. I try to expel the anger, suffering….the cancer that has burrowed itself within me. Grabbing onto bedsheets and twisting myself until the pain dulls, just so I can cry silently. My body trembles as I try to choke down the sounds of fear and … Continue reading Nightly Confessions

Drowning

Smile….keep smiling.  Oh wait, you are suppose to laugh now. Stay strong because everyone is watching. She smiles but it doesn’t reach her eyes. No one really wants to see so they just go along with what she portrays. If anyone would take a moment to look really into her eyes, they would see she is drowning. She is slowly collapsing under the brutal force of sorrow, regret and fear. Each of her breaths become more labored than the one before. But still she stands, smiling. Trying to be what everyone needs her to be. She makes it through the … Continue reading Drowning