Just For Tonight

Just for tonight

Do not whisper everything will be okay
Just let me fall apart
Cry all night
Let the fear take hold
I have been here before

Just for tonight

I let the loneliness set in
Deafening silence surrounds me
No hand to hold
No arms to make me feel safe
I have been here before

Just for tonight

Let the memories come flooding back
Reopen the wounds once closed
Allow me to be weak
Not sure which way to go
I have been here before

Just for tonight

I will curl up on the floor
Get lost in the darkness
Scream out for no one to hear
Inhale the bitter air
I have been here before

Just for tonight

Allow me to cry myself to sleep
Try not to wake for days
Get lost in dreams
Where nothing hurts
I have been here before

Just for tonight

And every night
I shut myself in my room
Screaming at God
Will I ever get a break

Until the sun rises

Then I will pick myself up
Paint on a smile
Pretend everything is okay
Build up walls

I have been here before

6 thoughts on “Just For Tonight

  1. Yes I think we do have to let the hurt invade and take us over, cry, relive, shut ourselves away and resolve how to get up and carry on, even if it is all pretend, for a while, there will be better days, maybe shrouded in the thickest fog right now behind walls you want to be impenetrable, but you are a strong and resourceful woman and you have been there before, just take your time, gather your strength for there are people who rely on you and need you in their lives.
    Sorry I feel I’ve delivered you two pep talks…goodness I liked your poems but I could feel your hurt..

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