I

I am not afraid

of falling
scraped knees
a broken heart
shattered dreams
having to crawl
until
I find my way back.

I have done that all before.

I

I am worried

that I will never fly
I will break
no one will be there
to put me back together
I fear
I am too tired
to save myself
again

I

I think about

what if
I am already broken
it frightens me
that is why
things that bring me
happiness
love
go away

I

I sometimes look

inside myself
I do not see
anything
my fingers reach
scraping
at the layers
I am so afraid
that maybe
I am just
empty

I

I wonder if

my heart
will always be lined
with sorrow
loneliness
I am lost
this leaves me
exhausted

I

I am tired

of being something
to everyone
always giving
my heart
for others to use
and discard
once more

I

I can hear

crying and screams
from myself
shaking
breaking down
as walls rebuild
this may have been
the last time
I let them down
for anyone

I

I am really afraid

of falling
once more

I have done that all before