I Am

I

I am not afraid

of falling
scraped knees
a broken heart
shattered dreams
having to crawl
until
I find my way back.

I have done that all before.

I

I am worried

that I will never fly
I will break
no one will be there
to put me back together
I fear
I am too tired
to save myself
again

I

I think about

what if
I am already broken
it frightens me
that is why
things that bring me
happiness
love
go away

I

I sometimes look

inside myself
I do not see
anything
my fingers reach
scraping
at the layers
I am so afraid
that maybe
I am just
empty

I

I wonder if

my heart
will always be lined
with sorrow
loneliness
I am lost
this leaves me
exhausted

I

I am tired

of being something
to everyone
always giving
my heart
for others to use
and discard
once more

I

I can hear

crying and screams
from myself
shaking
breaking down
as walls rebuild
this may have been
the last time
I let them down
for anyone

I

I am really afraid

of falling
once more

I have done that all before

4 thoughts on “I Am

  1. There are moments in life when all we see are walls in our way…..I would say that we never give up, life is precious, your are precious to your kids, family and yourself. Yes you have been there done that, once again you get up, dust yourself off and step forward.

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