Now I lay me down to sleep….wait I can’t sleep anymore.

I pray the Lord my soul to keep……doesn’t work. My soul is doused with shame and guilt.

Am I trying to pray? To protect my soul from what? Needs protecting from myself.

I have been on my knees begging for forgiveness. I have been more than just naughty.

Lies

Hurt

Pain

Fear

Anger

The bright warm light is now cold…pale…..extinguished.

I just want to shake the thoughts out of my head. It was me but wasn’t me. Can’t you see that?  No guess not. My words for you were real and I said them from behind the wrong image.  I am forever sorry…..doesn’t matter anymore.

Now I lay me down to sleep……..

I pray dear Lord never let me wake…